I can't really talk about what's going on.

But.

I kind of hurt inside and that's an ugly feeling.

Lame.

Perhaps I shall go cry.. before the pain pills make me blissfully numb.

I hate feeling things like a normal person. Srsly. Can't I just be superhuman forever?

:(

My life is a crazy kaleidoscope of happiness, of chaos, of love, and of laughter. While I cannot say things are perfect, they are slowly finding a middle ground that I am comfortable with. Joe moved out here. It was a little strange, actually. All we knew was he was coming to visit, and it became apparent in the last week before he got here, that ( Read more... )

I just feel like writing. I don't know what I want to write about. There's nothing spectacular in my life that needs brought to light, my life is steadily a pretty great place to be. There is nothing in particular that I feel the need to vent about, or cry about, or stage a mild protest about. I guess today I just want to feel important. I want to ( Read more... )

Lordy is life an amusing place to be ( Read more... )

I am a music nostalg-ist. This is not a word, I just made it up. But my favorite playlist has HIM's "Wings of a Butterfly" on it, and that song just brings up a myriad of memories and thoughts that make me smile and wistful all at the same time ( Read more... )

I think a friend of mine put it best, when I told her that I felt like when Matt and I split up, I lost a lot of friends - that I'm working to recover a "bad" reputation, while he is only tarnishing a "good" one. It's funny, how much harder it can be to do the former, even when the one doing the latter is perhaps far more deserving of a bit of ( Read more... )

I am completely in love with it. <3

There is some mildly excessive cleavage. So everyone has the option of not looking.

Unless you're Lindz. LINDZ LOOK AT MY HAIR IT IS AMAZERING YOU WILL LOVE IT MMMKTHNX.

Also sorry, they're from my phone, I'm a loser.

( G'damn, I have sexy hair. )

I really love douche bags who want to criticize my life in anonymous comments ( Read more... )

I'm going to cut these. If you'd like to read them, feel free. The letter to Caden is especially important to me; I am all he has. If something should happen to me, I would like to know he will have something to hold on to that tells him who I was. The letter to Matt is just stuff I need to get off my chest without his ever seeing it.

( Matthew... )

I have a confession to make ( Read more... )