Ok, I have both of my contacts out now, because of my red, puffy eyes. So, I can't see shit.everyone thinks it's Charlie's fault, but it's not. I think I just scratched them some how. I'm using his eye drops anyway. They burn like hell. I wish I could see, typing would be a lot easier ( Read more... )

Charlie, update your journal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Damnit!!

So, last night wasn't all that I had hoped. I went to see my g-ma on her birthday, and stayed longer than I had wanted to. Well, at least they didn't make me stay all night. Came home(I guess I could call it home), and hung out with Charlie, Brian, Dan, Dan's son,Dan's friend, and my Bebo. It was ok, I was hoping to drink, but it's ok. I didn't ( Read more... )

Ok, it's 12:12, and I can't sleep. Charlie looks so peaceful lying there, I wish I could watch him sleep. But, for some reason, it hurts me to look at him. I love him so deeply, and yet there is something missing. I don't know how to explaine it. It's like there is a hole in my heart. I want to be able to give him all that he needs or wants in life ( Read more... )

I don't know what's going on anymore. I just read Charlie's journal, and I feel like shit. Maybe I shouldn't have talked to him that day, maybe I should have left things the way they were. Maybe I screwed up his life again. From what I've seen, read, and heard he was happy with Amanda. He was happy with the arrangement they had, and I just had to ( Read more... )

OK, so I'm back at "home" and I don't feel right. I don't think I should be staying here when I have no job or money. Charlie keeps telling me not to worry about it and to just clean the house during the day, but he doesn't tell me where anything is. I still want to pay some kind of rent, but i can't. I think I should move back home, but when i ( Read more... )

I don't know what to think anymore. Charlie has been acting strange lately. He found out that Amanda and Kurt slept with each other, and it made him upset but he wouldn't say why. Now that she's back with Zak, Charlie seems happy that things didn't work out with them. Not that he's happy she hurt his best friend, but that Kurt doesn't have her. I ( Read more... )