I'm going to start writing in a journal at home. I think I've been stressing out a lot more lately then ever. I feel like I need to just write a lot more so I can relax myself. The only thing I worry about is someone reading it. I mean sometimes I get really mad on second and need to write about it to help me calm down. And then after getting it ( Read more... )

This feeling shouldn't be there, it's growing under where no one can see ( Read more... )

So I set my alarm and it doesn't go off. It makes NO sense! I look at it and its still set but never went off. Weird! So it's 10:40am and I'm suppose to be at Davids work at 11am to eat lunch. I figure its probably not worth the gas to drive there...so I text him and tell him. I then wake up and start getting ready bc I need to go to EMCC to get ( Read more... )

When I see his face I wonder if he knows how much pain he caused. I feel like reaching out and taking his life. To make him feel the way she did. All those years of pain and tears. Of feeling less, even though he was the scum. I want to throw it all in his face. Gosh I don't know how much I can take. I feel like he stole something he should have ( Read more... )

To not feel your fingertips across my body ( Read more... )

Toady is moving day! But I'm at work from 8am-7pm so I'm not doing the moving, David is. But I'm VERY excited to be starting a new chapter in our lives. I can't wait till I can cook dinner for him, clean, and show him what a wonderful wife I will be one day. I know that sounds stupid but it's all I want to do. I want to work and go to school and ( Read more... )

So on June 29th, 2006 was David and mines 1 year anniversary. We have officially been together a year!!! It's been the best/worse year of my life. The best because I met him; the man I want to be with for the rest of my life. And the worst because I lost someone so close to me and came close to losing another. I seriously don't know where I would ( Read more... )

Sometimes when I sit by myself I wonder what will happen ( Read more... )

Well I am as pissed as a person can get right now. I don't understand why is matter what someone did when they were freaking 17 years old!!! FUCK THIS SHIT!!! It was taken off his record. Its not on the public records. So that's really stupid that it would matter. It wasn't something huge. And now we are getting screwed on moving out. They won't ( Read more... )

You know you live in Arizona when you see "Extreme Heat Advisory" flashing across your screen. Only in Arizona. I feel like when you go outside you are going to burst into flames. I tell people...I'm pale for a reason because I don't go outside. I have enough health issues to worry about, I don't want to add skin cancer to them. Thanks. And so I ( Read more... )