I walk around thinking that everything will be alright. I'm not sure if I can keep my head up and a smile on my face. I just want to curl up and cry. Cry till there is nothing left. I feel like even tears won't make life any different. I don't want it to be real. I want to wake up from this nightmare. But I knew it was coming...but still it doesn't ( Read more... )

I have always been an observer my whole life. Seeing my parents fight and break up. Watching my mother fall in love all over again. I never thought I would love my step father the way I loved my dad. But I was wrong. My step dad is my dad...and my dad is only my father. I have watched my brothers have girlfriends. Form relationships, and have ( Read more... )

This weeks has been full of ups and downs...and it's not even over yet...School has been going okay. I'm not quite sure what to think of community colleges because they are NOTHING like the university. I'm freaking out that it's going to be VERY hard come test times because they teach you but not like in depth. I'm just freaking out...bc i just ( Read more... )

So I had my female yearly exam where they do blood work and you get your PAP done. It was over two weeks and my doctor hadn't called me back. I thought that was weird so I called them yesterday. They said there had been some kind of problem because someone schedule the appointment as a normal one so no one called me with my results. I was confused ( Read more... )

I'm not sure if this entry will make any sense to anyone...but I'm just gonna write...The other day my boyfriends mom asked me if I had any New Year Resolutions. I said without thinking no I don't. I said usually I make them but never keep them. I should have thought about it. This is my first year I never really thought about what I want to get ( Read more... )

So if you know me well you know about my asshole of a father. The man who helped make me a person. Actually helped make the person I am today. Someone who is nothing like him. Its strange how my whole life I never knew what was going on. He was my savior...my everything. I always told my mother that I was going to run away from her house to be with ( Read more... )

So these past few days have been the days of truth. It all started as my phone rang Sunday morning and it was my father. I didn't answer it because I don't really like talking to my father (not Gary but my real father). So when he called for a second time in less than 45 minutes I knew something was up so I answered. He said did you get my message ( Read more... )

Well Christmas is less than a month away and I haven't bought anything for anyone. I guess you could say I'm thinking really hard about what to give everyone. And I'm pretty stumped. My boyfriend really doesn't want anything but I'm gonna get him a lot of stuff...his birthday is right before Christmas and he never really had a birthday and ( Read more... )

Today while I was driving to school I was thinking how one day someone is going to be calling me Mom and not Kim. What if I don't respond? I mean Kim has been my name my whole life...it's gonna be weird. I mean I have a niece and nephew but they call me Auntie Kim. It has Kim in it still. It may see weird that I'm talking about this but to have ( Read more... )

So today I became a year older...and I just wanted to say that I feel so lucky to have a family that supports me through all turns in life, a boyfriend that would do anything and everything for me, and friends that I can turn to when I need a helping hand. I've never felt more happy in my life about where I am and who I am. Life has given me so ( Read more... )