It's very quiet here. I know you're not far away, close as my skin. I have tried to drink you away, fallen in the shower, slept on the floor when I've slept at all. And I know you're laughing somewhere, drinking, smoking, not thinking of me. I know I am not good enough for you. Not pretty enough, funny enough, kind enough. I am not her. My ( Read more... )

There are two things that cannot be concealed:
A cough and a love.
Even a small cough.
Even a small love.

- Anne Sexton

...a sideways glance, baby premature eyes ( Read more... )

And now he knows.

I don't know what mood you'll be in today, but I just want to say, that I miss you when you're not around, and I wish I had stood closer. I wish you had come for drinks when I asked you too, I wish you didn't look at me sometimes, like you do. You know, tentative and hurt. Not by me, but hurt all the same. I want you to know that I am ( Read more... )

I haven't given anything up. In a way. I just like to think I have let things go and let things grow. Some days it is too hard to fight. I don't want him anymore, I have allowed enough time. It is now time for me, time to move on. One day he might know this, a difference in eye contact, body language, & skin colour. I could have lost my ( Read more... )

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The other night I dreamt of a tilting sun and an ancient tree, and you were there, somewhere in the expanse of green plains and dead branches. I want to release you. I feel possessed sometimes I love you too much. I struggle with myself, losing my barriers, my vision is blurred. My small heart beat furiously on you, and I dared to open it. ( Read more... )

A warm autumn sun shining through the window, time
takes it time breathing noisely through your
mouth... waiting till there is nothing left to wait for.

Yesterday I took a life. I feel like I need to bring something back, replace it with something else. I fought off sleep and watched my cat from half closed eyes, told her I loved her & I was sorry.

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I think I could be anyone to you. Taking up a seat, someone to talk to. Your soft hands fluttering by my side.