Hey chicas, I was so excited to get messages from you girls out there. I thought wow no one is ever going to know I am even back or care for that matter. I just need to find a place to vent and I shouldve come back sooner. I came back from my NY trip, it was fun and I did okay in the eating department. I tried keeping it to salads at dinner, lil ( Read more... )

Wow I titled that WOW because I think "wow" how the fck did i get to this point? Well since I last posted in september, so much has changed. I got back with my husband in January, we reconciled and our relationship is going great. Last year was the year of hell, i felt like i was all over the place with my mind, my emotions, my food. I did so much ( Read more... )

Ohhh realized i havent posted. Life has just been so fcking crazy with everything going on. Having issues with life is a time suck. Sometimes coming on here makes me feel like im a whiner, but i guess we are all whining so who cares right ( Read more... )

im back on track today.
didnt eat tons yesterday but went to a fam party and ate
junk and purged. Got it all out of my system because I
needed to start fresh today.
day 2 of not eating at night. im so damn proud of myself.
Food today so far.
1 banana
1 yogurt
1 glass hot water w/lemon
about to go workout!


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I feel like i hardly ever post anymore. I want to start posting again and be on this so it will keep me accountable.

Intake today
baby carrots w/4 tblspoons hummus (100 cals)
2 green juices (kale, spinach, 1 apple, 2 lemons, 10 baby carrots, 1 orange)
1 laxative tea
handful baby carrots
so far so good...

Someee good ol fashion thinspo'


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Lately all I feel like doing is nothing. What the hell is wrong with me. Im so sick of being fat and the therapist says all my weight is muscle. Fck her, I fcking hate her and her stupid fcking comments. I sit there on the couch and I squirm and play with my hair and while she reads my food journal I jump on the scale just to check how fcking fat I ( Read more... )

Things are going and just going. No fat is leaving my ugly body so i need some thinspo, maybe this will help someone.


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Wow I havent been on here in forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG. My life has been a topsy turvy shit hole the past few months. Dealing with deciding if im getting a divorce or not, wanting to get a divorce and now back with my husband, but were not living together anymore. Lost like 5 pounds, gained it all back. Started binging and purging again, not ( Read more... )