i wish you could have told me in the first place you weren't happy with me.

i can barely believe the words as you spit them out, finally, so hesitant to hurt me but knowing it's inevitable. i hate to think of the last time we sat together, me upset that we're growing apart. i wish i could make you happy, i dont mean to annoy you; thats never my intention ( Read more... )

Winken, Blinken, and Nod one night ( Read more... )

i have to get on with my life, pick myself up and move on. <3;
grammy, ill always love you. ♥

what did i even have to come home to?

im up at my moms house in upstate new york right now ( Read more... )

i wish i could remind you why you loved me in the first place.

quick updatage:
+lip ring
+turned 19
+put in my two week notice at work
+am going to go visit my mom for a bit
+my car is almost road worthy and inspecterated!!
+striving for better control
+a spectacular new glass sherlock is my new buddy :]
+fuck the drama.

//Oh why can't I be what you need? A new improved version of me. But I'm nothing so ( Read more... )

i stopped writing in here because i just dont know what to say. i dont know how to express myself in words anymore. i wouldnt know where to start or finnish.

i cant even handle myself sometimes so why should i expect other people to?
maybe i really should just get help.

i wish i had enough words to tell you how i feel.

wow. i have the internet again.