im not sure what to write about. its been a while since i have been on line. and now tonight my father sais he is getting rid of AOL so now i have to figure out a new screen name for a new email address so i can still get mail. well i guess ill go.

well i would have up dated sooner but my computer was being gay. well everything seems to be getting better. mandy is giveing me another chance wich is makeing me very happy. and i am going to do my absolute best to not fuck it up. this chance means alot to me. i know i still wont get to see her as often as i useto but its ok. she has to have her ( Read more... )

i am bored. again. i finaly got the title to my s10 today. now that the truck is dead. but what ever. well i quess i can now junk the truck but i think i am going to just try to sell it. but i guess we will see what happens.

god i am so fucking bored.

i am not sure how i feel about today. it was an ok day. me and dumbnigger were supose to go ride but her seems to like getting peice of shit machines. so we didnt ride. then later me, mandy, and dumbnigger went to the nextel store so she could get her phone fixed. and then we went to get food. i had a good time. i still love her and want her to be ( Read more... )

i miss mandy!

i dont know if i made the right choice tonight. i decieded to go to her job and see her and to talk to her. wich i did. and we talk to for a while and i cried alot and she cried some too. but before she left, this is were i am not sure if my dessition was correct or not. i wound up kissing her. i wanted to really badly. but i am not sure it was the ( Read more... )

i know i have fuck up many times with you. and i am very truly sorry for everything i have ever done wrong. this past fuck up i feel the worst about. i really want to be able to make it up to you but i know there is nothing i can do that could make you forgive me. and i under stand that. and you have every reason to not forgive me. however i ( Read more... )

well i dont know what to write today, so i am sure it will be short. she is willing to stay friends with me so that is good and i think she will think about one day giveing me another chance so i am feeling a little better but, yes it still hurts. but i am happier because she still want to be friends and she doesnt hate me. i am hopping she will ( Read more... )

its now 10:18 and i still cant get ahold of the girl i love. i fucking hate this. i wish i was a better boyfriend. i wish i wasnt such a fuck up. i had a girl i truely cared and still care about and i fucked it all up. i cant say how sorry i am. i am so fucking sorry that it is tearing me up in side knowing i did this to her. i want her back. i ( Read more... )