It's been awhile i suppose.. just seems like a tornado hit and life got busy and stressful. 3 more classes though.. so thats good..then 2 finals next week. I can't believe i made it to the end of the semester. It seems like just yesterday it was freezing in janruary and i was dreading 16 more weeks of school. Oh, and for 2 months now i have ( Read more... )

Bits and pieces that i relate to, of "Done Wrong" and "Adam And Eve" by the booootiful Ani Difranco

"it just all slips
away so slowly
you don't even notice till you've lost a lot
i've been like one of those zombies
in vegas
pouring quarters into a slot
and now i'm tired
and i am broke
and i feel stupid and i feel used
and i'm at the end of my ( Read more... )

It's hard to breath sometimes, when a chunk of your heart is missing. I thought it was forever.. It's hard to let go, when everything you are has been touched by the person. Memories never fade and either do the tears, at least once a day they fall down my face. I'm hiding from everyone i know except jenn and allison. I'm trying to move on, but ( Read more... )

There's nothing to really say lately.. i'm feeling ok.  I'm going to florida in 2 weeks for break, and Japan to see my brother in may/june <3.  That will be nice, bc i miss him a lot.. and i like the idea of getting out of here and going across the world from everyone i know.  Except Jenn of course.. and poopie.  I have no ties to Bethlehem anymore ( Read more... )

I think i am a compulsive spender.. i just bought 6 things in the course of this week alone.. and its all from my account which is now at  $7.63.  Wow.. thats sad and retarted.. maybe im just bored.

uh.. nothings changed that i would want to write in here.. so ya

I'm having a hard time trying to find meaning for everything.. ew i dont feel like ( Read more... )

I completed my goal of 120 lbs!!! oo i am so fucking proud of myself.. everytime i go on the scale i'm still use to seeing 140.. so it makes me smile.  Blahh.. ahh yay!  So i started around Thanksgiving.. and now it is Feb. 21st.. thats just about 9 weeks.. so the important part is that i FINALLY did it healthy and the right way.. and thats why its ( Read more... )

Maggie might be coming on thurs or friday.. so that will be better than nice.  I need a break right about now.. and being with her helps me forget a lot of stuff and just have fun.

Everyones off from school this week.. ah fuck u guys.. i'd like to say its unfair, but i had a month and a half off for winter break.. and i get out like the 2nd week ( Read more... )

Oh god i was just at the store and i saw the most amazing looking girl.. i know most of this doesnt matter.. but i find it completely odd that i am attracted to butch-like women.. i mean that in a good way though.. i dunno.. i've never even had a friend that was super girlie.. but i suppose that has nothign to do with it.. its just attraction i ( Read more... )

in case you forgot..

I like girls.. A LOT

why doesnt anything EVER work out for me with them?

I feel really weird.. like detached from people.. even people who feel like blood to me.. but like at the same time im clinging onto them for dear life.  I dunno whats wrong with me.. cuz everyone/thing is pissing me off lately.. everyone.. my teachers, driving 787, my parents, my dog.. jeez i feel like a bitch.  But its not like i've shown any ( Read more... )