I must reiterate. Just where the hell am i, in life, to be on the ol' live-journal when i should have written this off with the rest of interwebs 1.0.
Internet explorer, gone! and good riddance. lime wire, likewise. Yet here is live journal, limping along on my occasional handouts. I am all for writing, because with the exception of letters to my ( Read more... )

It's a tuesday night and i am in my room. outside there is rain and some mild wind. singing, of all things, from some goddamned pop group or another, can be heard from the unit outside my window - the first floor of the west building. hearing this, at this time of times, makes me happy, it shows a lot of things that are uncommon in japan, and ( Read more... )

Blergh

Ive been sitting on my hands a lot lately, and as a result i have warm flaccid fingers and thumbs that dont see enough of anything anymore.

School is bullshit, life is too easy, and now i have two months of easier living. so, im going to do a lot less thinking, well the kind of thinking that holds us back. the thinking you do right before ( Read more... )

this will be fast and full of typos, but ive got some inspiration and despite the need to sleep - because i cant sleep a full night anymore - ill run with it.

its been a long-long time since i've been on here, at least three months. ive been in japan for two months now, and my japanese is still shitty. i was worried that i would have shitty japanese ( Read more... )

one month and im gone, for ten whole months, and  right now my only concern is that im poor, really poor. i planned on having work this summer -i even dropped a class second session, thinking i would be too busy- but then this thing with customs happened, and for all i know all my salt water samples are still sitting in customs in istanbul. thats ( Read more... )

an update:

i may not pass one of my classes, this could mean a lot of things -mostly bad. the other two classes (yes, only two) are going to be GPA boosters, and will guarantee me a chance to study abroad, but i still don't know if i want to, no word on the scholarship, no word on my own thoughts.

it seems that im not the only one without a clue, ( Read more... )

I cant sleep, i suppose i could make good use of this time -although i feel most of what comes out of my brain this late is gib-jab-gibberish. School has been estressing me out something awful, considering ive only got three classes, and one of them is a photo class - that all sounds quite pathetic. One of em is a structural design class, the group ( Read more... )

a couple is having sex in a parked car just opposite the lawn from my window. while taking my dog out for a little pee-sesh i thought i noticed someone asleep in the car, guess 'sleeping' became a verb in the plural sense. i wonder which one of my neighbors wanted to spice things up by taking it outside...if its the teenage girl down the street i ( Read more... )

just one of those melancholy friday nights, no matter what i do tonight i will want to be doing something else - there is no way to win.
It doesn't matter what it is, i could drink with friends and wind up naked in a hot-tub, or spend hours contemplating what movie i want to watch, something that will compliment my mood without exaggerating my ( Read more... )

my dreams are getting further and further away from something i can connect to. that is not to say they are dreamlike, they are entirely of this world, but i feel no connection to them. faces are exchanged and no longer hold any value. i'm afraid to come across a mirror while asleep,  i dont know who will be looking back.


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