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Ugh
Being broke is the worst. It's like not having a car. Money and cars are invested with so much cultural power that they become synonyms for power, their absence synonymous with helplessness. I have a car, but it doesn't run without money.
If I were only dealing with the logistics of having no money and not the metaphorical implications, I would be ( Read more... ) -
real life update
I have fallen out of the habit of writing here, but the habit of writing here is a nice one. And when prompted by curiousity, I went searching last night for the date of an event that I knew, for sure, would be here somewhere. And that reminded me that there is something to be said for detailing things in one place, especially considering how ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
The calm is slipping away and I can't get it back. The urge for change is desperate, sudden, and impersonal, like a trapped animal lashing out at anything in its way, without regard for harming itself or others.
This literally has nothing to do with you, any of you. I am physically itchy, desperately stuck, and nothing is moving. Nothing is ( Read more... ) -
the smell of damage
I am surrounded by scraps of my own useless handwriting and documents I've printed in triplicate because I can't remember where I've put them ( Read more... ) -
I know I say this all the time, but...
I can't do this. -
signs you might be stressed.
I am tired of articles detailing all the warning signs for stress, like we don't know. (Oh, you mean that waking up six times in one night gnawing on my own extremities is a bad thing?!)
Here are my top ten signs that you might be stressed ( Read more... ) -
because they're weary of you
because it's really time you stopped pretending any of these problems came from anywhere else but inside your head
because you still try to talk to them like you expect them to understand, which is evidence of a deep stupidity
because the idea that you're helping, or ever have, is a convenient fiction that's only useful when you're trying to feel ( Read more... ) -
when you take everything away
samhain. quit smoking, and eating shit food, and whatever else ( Read more... ) -
alternately
yeah, it really was a terrible idea.
here's hoping that I'm asleep before I crash? -
"go too far, live too long..."
For the record, that was a terrible fucking idea.
I know that.
So you won't take it too amiss, perhaps, if I tell you that OMG HELL YES. And this is EXACTLY what I needed.
Exactly.
It's been way too fucking long.