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ok weird dreams can stop now
last night ( Read more... ) -
are you serious, brain?
First: taking brief notes about a dream using the note function on my phone = one of the best half-asleep ideas I've ever had.
Second: holy shit this dream.
First, the notes, which I think will be almost as entertaining as the dream itself:
hcg hungry peanut butter sue regis philbin. hours awake seizure. dad cooking mom shopping grandpa outside cold. ( Read more... ) -
have now reached the point at which
I want to send long, apologetic letters to everyone I've ever met.
All I can do is sit here any run through lists of all of the terrible things I've done to people.
I keep remembering people I'd forgotten existed, and reasons to apologize to them.
Good times. -
what's up crazy dream
Warnings for really weird shit. Seriously. And I left out some of the worst things.
Driving with my brother through the downtown of a coastal city. We pass two large shopping center type places that I want to show him, even though I only have a few minutes. One of them has mostly cheap, flea-market type stuff, and the other is more expensive. He ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
soon I am going to write a post that talks about the things that are actually going on in my life - what I am doing with my time, all that nonsense, because much of that is going really well.
but I am overextended (nonsense!) and my anxiety level is pretty high - in this moment, specifically. I think that it's high lately, in general, but I can't be ( Read more... ) -
question of the day (how crazy am I really, volume 18,549)
In times of high stress, violence seems very appealing. I think I want to learn kickboxing. Or something. I think getting hit in the face a few times a week would make me feel better ( Read more... ) -
this would all be so much easier
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trigger warning
I am fantasizing about razor blades a lot more than I am strictly comfortable with.
This week fucking blows.
I think that, sometimes, lots of crying and dissociating and wishing you'd never given up self-injury are signs that you are in the wrong fucking job.
But cognitive dissonance is, like, the entire source of self-destructive impulse. It really ( Read more... ) -
this is the point at which
I get so twitchy and agitated that I JUST CAN'T DO THIS. and I might start yelling at people in 3,2,1...