( El Hijo. )

So I never ended up posting about what I said I would write about in my last post. (a little voice inside my head is shouting: So typical ( Read more... )

Recently, I've been toying with the idea to visit the school counselor and simply pour out all my thoughts. I tried it once before for an entirely different issue, and all that did for me was show me how unhelpful it was - going to a counselor is not going to solve all of life's problems. So I'm kind of wary. Is it worth feeling vulnerable and ( Read more... )

I don't really know why I feel the way I do these days. I feel like everyone is judging me, like I have to constantly strive to make a good impression. This constant pressure leaves me crawling back to my hole, because I can't live up to what I want to be. It's the same hole from childhood, where I peeked out at the world and was scared to leave ( Read more... )

A space ( Read more... )

Days just go by as a blur now. In the back of my mind, I am aware that I am supposed to be in *school*, where I am supposed to be doing *work*, but I've just been tossing all of that away. How much longer can I pretend that I don't need to be focused and productive ( Read more... )

Me: Do you think my legs look fat ( Read more... )

I decided that instead of going to sleep at a reasonable hour, it'd be a good idea to make a list of all the dance performances that I've done, plus Youtube videos. Hope I'm not missing any. Here it is:

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I feel like I'm being petty and selfish and manipulative lately. I can't put in the effort to be patient, understanding, forgiving, etc. I'm acting on whims and I'm acting on ideals. I'm being narrow-minded and not at all magnanimous ( Read more... )

Everything I choose to do or not to do - I end up affecting one person or another, myself and others. It's like a constant balancing act. How much of one thing can I do without upsetting another? What are the consequences of my actions, and how much do I care about them ( Read more... )