I could've done it last night in a second. its all I think about. I don't want to be in this world anymore. I don't belong here. but I'm not allowed. it would kill my parents. I don't think anyone else would care, so honestly what does it matter. I've got it all planned out. it would be so easy. sososo easy. but I don't talk about it to anyone. why ( Read more... )

boysboysboys.
this always happens once summer hits

I finally looked up my grades. I got two A's, a B+ and a B! (Better than I thought I was gonna get, too) I'm proud of myself. I can probably get back into stony with those. I'm gonna call an advisor and see what my options are.

As i think about it, as i think about the past
the only person i'd give up isaac in a second for would be eric.
hes also the only person i'd give up smoking boags and blazing for.
I know it'll never happen, hes so far away.
i just miss that kid to death.

sometimes there's those days when I wish I never existed.

paul went to the third eye blind concert last night. I'm so jealous, but he called during jumper and slow motion and that meant a lot to me ( Read more... )

I've come to realize, he's only sweet to me when he wants something from me, usually money.

so I went to gino's with paul and jesse, and boy obsession #1 was there. I was shocked haha, I never expected to see him ever again. I'm gonna have to go to gino's a lot more now. lol

I think I've officially lost my faith in people. everyone has an ulterior motive. no one is out there to just be my friend. I have to bribe people to hangout with me. I think the worst is my brother.

I hold true to my statement that whenever I sleep out I have the illest time ( Read more... )