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Dreams
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Keeping track
It's been a while since I've used this. I've started trying to get help, and I think it would be helpful to keep track of my thoughts and feelings and experiences, for when they ask how I am doing ( Read more... ) -
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For a moment, I was so disgusted at myself that I wanted to bleed, I felt I deserved the hurt. Just a moment, but that's enough, the return of this self-destructive urge after what seems like so long is frankly terrifying.
I'll put it down on this occasion to the alcohol still in my system, and the large amount of anxiety for my (very) significant ( Read more... ) -
alone in the stillness
I hate not being able to sleep properly, I'm always fucking tired, and times like now, where I'm just lying in the darkness by myself, the thoughts and whispers aren't quite as distant as I would like. I don't want to be that way, I make an effort to banish such things, but sometimes, just sometimes, it's a temptation. when I'm lonely, when I'm ( Read more... ) -
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hallucinations this morning, figures everywhere, watching me, and the world tilting, melting away. I hope this is just because I'm tired, stress doesn't help, I need to calm myself down, need a better mood. I want a hug, I miss her.
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Holiday Fears
Lovely day yesterday, family times are wonderful, don't get enough of them these days ( Read more... ) -
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Just got a birthday reminder for a friend of mine who died, from an overdose I believe, I lose track, it seems that's the way everyone is dying these days.
It's put a bit of a gloom on my day.
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Forelsket
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The Empty Night
I'm trying to keep my mood up, there are things to look forward to, but nothing comes quick enough, and in the meantime, my life basically consists of going to work and sitting in my room. I'm feeling quite isolated I guess, and a little lonely. I try to be antisocial, but I need company every now and again. It's nice being here with my family in ( Read more... )