am I still on your friends list, this old name?

today I missed having friends. so I drank alone. yippie.

Looking back at genderedterms old posts, I used to be more poetic. Thank god I stopped that.

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I went to Keith's yesterday. He works for Hi-Q. Kind of a cool kid, has a really interesting story. That's what I like when I first meet someone - I get to find out their story. His house is really nice. We had coffee and I became engaged with his story. Sometimes when people are telling me really detailed stories that I know nothing about I ( Read more... )

my horoscope today:

"Your lazy days are over. You finally get to take action, but perhaps not in the way you thought. Something at home needs to be tossed out, cleaned up or heard. Now is the time."

I talked to my mother today. She said my dad started going to AA. This apparently was the thing to change his mind. He had been drinking when ( Read more... )

This morning I woke up still feeling like shit. So rather than be all co-dependent (and feeling particularly independent because Kate is out of town and her car is here) I went out. It started out as just a drive to clear my head and half way through the drive I felt fine. So I shopped. Way to be American and a consumer. I bought two pairs of ( Read more... )

These past few months I've managed to totally forget who I am. Who was I kidding thinking that I could be emotional and disclose and be safe? God, I wish I were myself in eighth grade. I forgot what it was like to be independent and I disgust myself because I've grown so to be the way I am. I'm absolutely no fun like this. I miss my old self ( Read more... )

I love it when my boss doesn't come to work. all I do is shit like this:


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I got an A on my test! None wrong on the multiple choice. This coming from my first exam with a D. I think I can pull it up to a B if I have a good group project ( Read more... )

I feel that I haven't had a pointless update in too long. Not to say there is any point to any of my posts (or anything for that matter (playing the game)) but I need to write about my mundane daily life to remind myself of what I've actually done later ( Read more... )

went out last night. got drunk. felt like shit. Everytime I've gone drinking lately I've just ended up depressed. I went outside to try to call someone to talk about it and ended up with two voicemails and the realization that I couldn't call the other three people I wanted to call ( Read more... )