The razors and the dying roses
Plead I don't leave you alone
The demi-gods and hungry ghosts
Oh God, God knows I am not at homeI'm starting to see some reason... no purpose to my pain. The longer I spend out her... here ( Read more... )

once again it's 2 in the morning and i have no one to talk to...

so here i am on this thing... this journal is so inadequate.

i need a serious change in my life

I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. I don't know who I am when I look at myself. I take so much shit from people. The other day I called a friend of mine a bitch and told her to lay off. She wasn't angry, she was actually happy that I "stood up to her". I didn't raise my voice at all or anything, but while I was saying it it felt so very not ( Read more... )

I need the winter to come soon. It's the time of year I spend alone and the cold fills me to the bone with energy. Winter lets me love again. It's when the world goes to sleep and I wake up ( Read more... )

Nothing ever works, for the past several years this has been the case. I'm on the brink of just saying "fuck it" to everything in this life, if something dosen't change. All I need is one little spark of happiness to hold on to and I can deal with anything... without it: FUCK IT

I have no problems, but they always feel so many. Feels like this'll be the hardest year yet of my dumb easy life. So why do i hate it here?

I wish I could be surprised more often...

I can't take everything being normal. Or maybe normal isn't the word for it, but I know things aren't the same.

Man I'm back home for a few hours and can already taste how lonely this place is to me. I don't know how I'm gonna handle this. I mean it is better than the fury I feel when I'm staying at my father's place ( Read more... )

As I grow I find that rather than finding answers to my life's questions as I expected I would, I'm losing my questions.

I've moved into my new place in Galloway by Stockton. It's a very nice place, it has two floors, three bed rooms, 2.5 baths, a kitchen, a huge living room, and a back yard that ends in a pond.

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