Well I thought I deleted this thing, I guess I didn't. It's 5:30 in the morning and I'm thinking about my life and the people in it ( Read more... )

So in searching through my hard drive for my lost music files I stumbled across a conversation I had via aim with Maggy. I have no idea why I saved it but there it is.

I read through it. It reminded me of the huge disconnect between us. It also reminded me of how much I cared for her and how nausiatingly happy we made eachother.

I miss being

I have a new favorite movie, The City of Lost Children. It's a french film starring Ron Perlman. This movie is amazing and Ron Perlman speaks french... who knew? Bob and I were poking around comcast on demand, choosing the most far out there movie we could find, and finding something this crazy and amazing. It's as amazing as that run on sentence! ( Read more... )

So I was gonna write some sort of vaguely meaningful post, but now i can't stop looking at the pic of Bria's son and smiling.... so whatever! *joy*

Send all your love to young Ryatt Elijah and the new mom!

I hate this apathy, it keeps me from anything that could make me happy in life. A younger me would never say die like the person I am today. I don't like who I am. I'm trying to listen to the heart of who I am but that voice is so weak. The only person who disappoints me more than everyone else in this life is myself ( Read more... )

no sense worrying about anything now. i remember who i am and i'll never let it go again

Nothing's ever going to be just right, so stop waiting for perfection and go with what's real.

So I noticed today that I'm on academic probation thanks to my fucking up of informal logic last semester. What this means, right now, is that I can't drop my Russian class. Dropping this class is, unfortunately, something I think I need to do. Well I have a week to get it sorted. If I'm still in Russian by the 18th it's do or die ( Read more... )

When it comes to relationships (I'm the dumbest one)
And I don't mean just with girls (I mean with everyone)
Your illustrations always point out just what's wrong with me
It's Chap Stick, and Chapped Lips, and things like Chemistry

As time goes by I feel more and more inadequate. There's this vice grip of apathy that I just cannot shake off. I'm so easily made happy, but I need to get away from this crushing negativity for five minutes to put out the effort to find something ( Read more... )