i haven't gotten my period. i'm terrified that i'm pregnant and unknowingly hurting the baby by not eating. god i'm paranoid ( Read more... )

I FUCKED UP MY ANKLE AND WASN'T ABLE TO RUN TODAY! I AM SO ROYALLY PISSED! i was so on track. i was doing so well. now i'm gonna be freaking out all day bc i don't know when i'm gonna be able to work out again.

pleasepleaseplease feel better so i can run tonight and not miss an entire day

i have this pain in my chest. not a physical pain, just an emotional one. i just want to be held while i cry. i couldn't bring myself to cry with him. he could sense it, though. he was being sweet rubbing my back and playing with my hair. i noticed that when i'm thinking i play with my own hair. i feel neaseous, but not actual neaseous. i hate the ( Read more... )

boy asked how much i've been eating. i refused to tell him. he asked if it was under 1000. i said yes. he seemed a bit worried. not so much worried, as not getting why i was doing it. it was dropped quickly. i told him i'll stop when i get to the weight i want. i'm just surprised he asked ( Read more... )

I haven't posted an interesting entry in awhile. I feel like all my entries have been about food consumption and working out. While I know that's soooo interesting to you guys, I think I'll post a real entry ( Read more... )

i'm starting a 10 day and will continue through unless i can't do my workouts or focus on school.

ok so eating has been terrible. i did well yesterday until i vape-d and ate a whole pint of ice cream and then a can of pringles... and then today i had hooters ( Read more... )

ok i am getting back in control TODAY. i am eating, but not excessively. i am not going to stuff my face or binge. i am not going to stuff my face or binge. i am not going to stuff my face or binge. i am not going to stuff my face or binge. i am not going to stuff my face or binge. i am not going to stuff my face or binge. i am not going to stuff ( Read more... )

i am writing this mid-binge. fantastic, eh? yeah so much for that fasting. unless by fasting you mean eating hot chocolate, banana with peanut butter, chocolate chip muffin, cheetos, and peanut butter cup gelato w/i the span of 20 minutes.

looks like it's gonna be a looong afternoon on that eliptical

why is it that whenever i binge, the next day turns into an all out pig-fest bc i'm a failure anyway? can someone say PATHETIC ( Read more... )