I am constantly holding back tears

and I just cannot take this anymore.

something has to give
and I am afraid it already has.

I'm home for the summer ( Read more... )

If you were able to go back into the past and change something you did or said or prevent something from happening, would you? Would you risk the now to visit the past?

I would not.

I have moved half my stuff out of my dorm room ( Read more... )

Last night I layed in bed thinking about how I can leave school in like 7 or 8 days ( Read more... )

sometimes i look at people and i get this unsettling feeling in the pit of my stomach. a overwhelming feeling to get sick comes over my body and i can feel the back of my eyes swelling up with tears. this all happens in a matter of seconds. then these people's faces become ingrained in my mind and it takes me hours to push them out of my head ( Read more... )

I am sitting here and I am close to tears. but that has become nothing new. it seems as though I am always close to tears now. with all my heart I wish I knew why ( Read more... )

I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real ( Read more... )

i haven't updated in a long time. well updated about what is actually going on with me. part of this was becuase I was miserable, well miserable half the time. I had no friends. okay that might be a lie. but I came back from break and it was like I did not want to be here anymore. I finally realized, after a break down, a lot of this had to do with ( Read more... )

i love him.