Wednesday.  Hump-day.  The mid-way point.

This week has been a pain in the ass, and I still have three days left til weekend time.  At least business has picked up, so I get those sorely needed hours...

I really don't know how to explain the place that I am in right now.  Everything SEEMS okay, but any time that I am inclined to grab a brew after ( Read more... )

I am having a tough one today.

What I have been going over in my mind is this:  does everyone cheat?

I have to say NO, since I know people that DON'T, so that leads me to:  do all women cheat?

Again, I have to say no, since I can cite examples.

So WTF?  Do I just have THAT bad luck?  I mean really, am I that much of a pushover that I am blind?  I know ( Read more... )

"I need no other proof as to the existence of God other than music."

Kurt Vonnegut, 2005, A Man Without a Country

this funk or "tired" will not go away.  I feel like I could sleep for days.  I get up lately feeling okay, but by the time I am driving to work, I feel like I am going to fall asleep on the road!

my mind is a dryer vent
clogged with the lint 
or those ten thousand usless things.

often I find that 
cleaning the trap is
but a temporary fix
as it will fill up 
again with all this drama.

still more, I am finding that
all the trap really is
a placebo to make me
feel like I am making progress
endlessly repeating the cycle.

the only logical solution 
to wear ( Read more... )

Chuck Norris invented black.  That is why it is okay to fear the dark ( Read more... )

Maybe I am just gun-shy, but when I get up here at work so early, it reminds me of the LAST job that I was regularly the FIRST person on site in the morning ( Read more... )

Yesterday sucked. I was a little... venomous... to say the least.

I am better now.

The nicotine desire was way too bad. I don't know if it is a turning point, or if I put the patch in a bad spot (?), but it was almost unbearable. Mayhaps today goes better?

Whether you realize it or not, Luke, you helped a lot with responding to my rants. It was an ( Read more... )

 
I just have to unload...

Ye ole patch is especially itchy today...  I have started to directly associate high levels of stress with the itching.  Am I going to have a "phantom itch" for the rest of my life when i crave a cigarette????

CRAP.

I am a little worked up today as I was exceedingly irritated last night with a friend of mine that was actually ( Read more... )

Boy am I glad that I did not try and quit smoking cold turkey.  I am a big enough ass even when I AM smoking!  I really do feel like I am going to rip somebodies head off...

So I am sitting here waiting to do a training class for a phone system, and all that I can think about is CIGARETTESMOKESQAURE....  I suppose that is the thought process of an ( Read more... )