why cant he see how muhc i actually like him... not just as a friend.

yes someone in their right mind gave me my license! woot woot!

well havent updated in a while. nothing really has change. my best friend is leaving today and i dont know what im going to do without her. my other good friend just left yesterday for boot camp. all i know is that this summer is going to suck. all my friends are leaving, i have to work all the time. no one ever wants to ahgn out with me so im glad ( Read more... )

oh god, im scared!

well a lot has been going on. i got a job, and i love it. i got a car and i just got a cell phone. if you want the number let me know. life is going pretty well i must say. except in the guy part, but thats nothign new to me. but i ened to go finish this project and all ym other homework and im gonna be skilled and do it while watching forest gump!

tonight was amamzing. i was having such a bad night. but then i finally convinced sue and nciole and dad to let me go out. so i went to evans hosue and we watched wedding crashers. it was a stupid movie. then we watched this guy on comedy central that did things with pupets. it was sooo funny. and we spent the night telling our stupid stories. im ( Read more... )

well this weekend was awsome. kasse was down for the weekend. friday i drove around with kasse and got lsot while nicole was at work and then we went to the drive in that night. then saturday i went with chandra and her family to the ryans. omg so much fun. it was a balst. we wanted to leave early but im glad we didnt but between playing manhunt ( Read more... )

looking at the prom pictures all that was running through ym head and how much i do miss him and how much i do wish we were going bakc out. yet i know its like impossible. but i have never felt this way about a guy evcept for one. for once i would love to not fuck up a relationship i get. nvm the shit i have going n with a so called best friend of ( Read more... )

all i feel is emptiness. like there is no feelin inside of me and all i am is hollow. like no one cares and like everything in my life is gone and will never return again. i feel like im locked in a cold jail cell for life with no bail. just sitting there looking at the bare, cold wall thinking about how bad i fucked up and i cant find a reason.

well thsi vacation was okay. hung out with Chandra and my brother for most of it. got yelled at for myspace and im not allowed on it cause it put yet another virus on my computer. today i spent the day with ym dad. we went to Hartford Conn. to a biker's show. it was so cool. got some signaturesa nd saw the biker build off. got a wicked sweet shirt ( Read more... )