i feel cold and alone. not the two best feelings. i feel used. if i could i would make this all go away, but somtimes there is just nothing you can do to change the situation you are in. this is one of those times. damn me for being so weak and naive. damn me for trusting someone who would just hurt me in the end. damn me for wanting more than i ( Read more... )

I HATE EVERYONE RIGHT NOW. WHY CAN'T I FIND A FUCKING JOB. I APPLIED EVERYWHERE AND AHVE LIKE SIX ONLINE RESUME ACCOUNTS AND I JUST WANT A JOB. I ALWAYS COME UP SHORT ON THE YEARS OF EXPERIENCE NEEDED BUT HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GET THE FUCKING EXPERIENCE IF I CAN'T GET A DAMN JOB?!!??!!?!??!? IT FRUSTRATES ME TO THE MAX. AND I AM SUPPOSED TO BE GOING ( Read more... )

so today was an interesting chain of events. i know now that all i really know is that guys are hot and i am stupid, and lifes not fair and kim is lucky, alice bitches about everything, and dan has some explaining to do.

what goes down must come up? why can't it be like that. i really want this last job that i applied for. all my problems would be gone if i was hired and all because i have blond hair and big boobs. how cool would that be? i could do the whole "i am cute, let me serve you drinks and seat you at your table and get paid big bucks for it" sounds pretty ( Read more... )

does anyone else feel like when they need someone the most is the time when no one is available? i have soemthign to do tomo, but as for today i was floundering and felt like a fool for breakign down in forn of my dad about my financial problems, even though i am in teh place i am in due to my on actions and its not his fault i am broke. he gave me ( Read more... )

i had an AHA! moment. i was looking at a posts on myspace and came across duckie's post entitled "LOVE" i click on it and of course it is one of those things that say if you are in love or falling in love then send this on or have bad realationships for five years. of course i closed it. then it occurred to me, that is why my love life is so shitty ( Read more... )

ahem. dan called. he was busy. he has worked seven days in a row. guess who isn't impressed? guess who wont accept that as an excuse as to why he hasn't called? that non impressed,un gullable person would be me. play your fucken violen dan. play it.

i give up on dan totally. if he wants to be immature and not call me for two weeks then that is cool. he can kiss my ass. poor little fucker, he doesn't know what he is missing, and i'm not saying that cause i'm conceited, i'm saying that because he wont find anyone else who will love him like i did. poor sad fuck.

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