I finally registered to vote today. I registered Republican.

Just kidding.

For the longest time, the only thing I've ever wanted was a romantic relationship. And it's selfish. No one ever gets in a relationship out of selflessness. Everyone has a primordial desire to be loved. It's a cliche, but an honest one at that. Most people just want to be reassured that someone loves and cares about them. I know I do. And don't we ( Read more... )

A friend and I had been planning on writing a film about Bill Hicks. Looks like Russel Crowe and Ron Howard are attached to a proposed Hicks film. Nothing has been written yet though, apparently. Ugh. Russel Crowe is a great actor, but I can't see him playing Bill Hicks. And Ron Howard is such a vanilla director. Let's hope they're just financing ( Read more... )

Last Wednesday was my 21st birthday. I originally attempted to arrange a small get-together of sorts, but plans kind of changed spontaneously as we went along. I like when that happens. The day before my mom and I went to Barnes and Noble and ran into Fred. I heard her say "This is awkward" to her friend. I didn't really approach her. We just said ( Read more... )

I thought when I got out of high school, my whole life would change, and I'd be a whole new person, which a whole new life. Not much has changed. I still live at home, I'm still a misfit, I still have a hard time finding acceptance from people, I have few friends, people still think I'm creepy and that I'm going to murder people, and I still can't ( Read more... )

I'm not really sure what's going on. She came over briefly today. Everything felt like it usually does. It wasn't awkward at all. Things are kind of ambiguous now. It's as if we're in limbo. We're friends, and we always have been, but now we've crossed the line of friendship, and acknowledged how we feel about each other, which changes a lot of ( Read more... )

Fred and I went on our date. I cooked us a spaghetti dinner, and we watched In Search of a Midnight Kiss. The movie got very brutally honest at some point, which kind of changed the mood of the night. "Have you ever had an experience like that?" "I guess not" "You live life vicariously through film." It was a little weird as I drove her back home. ( Read more... )

I'm going to be 21 next month. I still live at home, and I haven't worked in a couple months, although I'm still technically employed. My car died last night, which prompted another serious talk with my mom about how I have no direction in life. I want to move out right this second, but I don't know how. I don't have any money, or a car to go job ( Read more... )

Fred and I are going on a date tomorrow. She called me on Sunday and we talked for a while. About an hour into the conversation, she said she had been reading my letter (when I asked her out over four months ago, I wrote her a long love letter telling her why I liked her) and she thought we should go out. I'm curious as to why now though, all of a ( Read more... )

I'm going to be attempting to direct two feature films this year, back-to-back. I want to shoot Asleep at the Wheel as planned, however, I was offered the chance to direct Godmakers. Godmakers is a stage play written by Enrique Acosta (Spider Baby The Musical) and was recently produced here in Bakersfield, at the Empty Space Theatre. It's about a ( Read more... )