LIFE! Ah yes, and what IS life, anyway? What is This, why are my ears itching? What is it I'm allergic to? IS it food? Is it beer? is it TV? cats? Being alone? how do I build my life, and once I've started, how do I ensure that I keep building. How good is a house without a cieling? or walls? I guess I can live in a basement, but think of what i'd ( Read more... )

I lay on the floor feeling sick. This day has been like a nightmare, though strangely poetic in it's agonizing slowness. The train whistle that echos through the valley and bounces off each peak of sugarbush haunts me; reminds me of things best forgotten ( Read more... )

In a Past Life...
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This morning I couldn't wake up. I tried several times, but always the temptation to curl up in my nest and close my eyes was too strong. My dreams were strange and unsettling ( Read more... )

Hate is a strong word. Perhaps disrespect and disinterest are more appropriet. I hardly feel that I love anyone anymore ( Read more... )

When I was 4 years old, I saw a national geographic photo of a seagull with its head caught in one of those plastic things that hold 6 packs of soda. I remember staring at it in fascination as much as horror, unable to tear my eyes from the gruesome image. The message was clear to me: humans do bad things to the earth, and the earth does not ( Read more... )

As a child I used to be unorigional and cliche, but it was how I needed to be at the time. Since, I believe, I have been on a quest for origionality. In that quest, I have found origionality by it's self and for the sake of its self to be empty and meaningless. Better to be cliche and heartfelt then to be origional and shallow ( Read more... )

I registered for Kripalu this evening. Feels really good to have that in place. I'm ordering my textbooks... I love buying books... it's so exciting. Massage school is exciting ( Read more... )

yesterday was gizzy's birthday. love you gizzy. my ankle, and wrists ache ( Read more... )

Sunday afternoon. quiet. my body feels strong and nurished. Bikram yoga. watermellon. I picked up a paycheck today, from the saurkraut guy, and I got a message from my massage school... it sounds like i'm in. i'm sooo excited. my cousins left early this morning. it was soo nice to see them... i got to spend some really good time with Alex, taught ( Read more... )