I feel strange, maybe even scared ( Read more... )

Sitting here, waiting for the time to pass
waiting for prom to come, waiting for the limo to drive by my house

I feel bad eventhough tonight is my one and only last time prom at school. My hair and make-up is done, my nails are done and I had the dress on today  and it still fits. I'm gonna do the last couple of things soon and then put my dress on ( Read more... )

I was right about the 'competition'. That other girl does like him. And I don't think he likes her. Afterall he doesn't 'do' dating right ? Right. They made a little Valentines-message for him in the schoolpaperthing. That was a joke, but they said that someone did like him and her name started with an L, that is the girl who wrote 'I love mr. H' ( Read more... )

Ik weet niet wat jou zover heeft gebracht
Als ik jou zie, 's avonds in het park
De autolichten beschijnen je lichaam
Zonder ogen, zonder herinnering

Ik neem aan dat je nooit liefde hebt gehad
Ook niet toen dat zo belangrijk voor je was
De woorden die bij jou horen zijn goedkoper dan ik dacht
In 1 seconde ging het regenen vannacht

Ga die wereld uit
1 seconde ( Read more... )

Yesterday was my birthday
20 years old now
or young
however you want to put it

I haven't decided yet wether it's old or young. When I say it out loud it sounds old. And it feels like I've wasted pretty much 20 years of my life already. I don't want that, I want to look back and know I've enjoyed my years. Right now I haven't really lived it up yet. Or ( Read more... )

Here she is
Ready to go out
trying to be pretty
trying to keep standing while everything around her is starting to fall down

Thinks are starting to die around me again. I felt good before but not anymore. When I have to go out, when I really have to out for myself to have a good time I feel like crying.
I think that a couple of my friendships are ( Read more... )

Wow, who knew that excercising would make you feel so good, so hyper, so kick @ss ( Read more... )

Heading towards disaster again
Right now I completely hate everything about myself. As happy and self-assured I was at the New Years Meeting, as unhappy and disgusted of myself I am right now. I hate the way I think and I want it to stop but it's not stopping. I can only think about how ugly I am, how fat I am, what a loser I am. So worthless, so ( Read more... )

We met everyone at this small bar in my hometown. Everyone were me, my friend, a friend of her and two guys, friends of them and eachother. We had fun, laughed a lot, but kept thinking about him alot. Couldn't help it ..
Around two o'clock we all left. And that one guy asked wether he could have my email adres :p I don't like him in that way, he's ( Read more... )

For all you know it could be your neighbour, the guy sitting next to you in class, the person you pass by on the streets.
The year 2006 was most likely the year of the most rapings/disappearances/murders here in holland. At least for what we've heard on tv and such. Almost every week there was a report of a kid murdered by family, a girl raped and ( Read more... )