If enough people look at you, you'd never need anybody's attention again.

If you could acquire enough, accomplish enough, you'd never want to do or own another thing.

If you could eat or sleep enough, you'd never need more.

If enough people loved you, you'd stop needing love.

Someday you could be smart enough.

Someday you could get enough sex.

xoxo: Does that make sense tho? I mean I dont get jealous and I love you no matter what ... I think I would be something good to have in your life, cause I know you're something good in mine.

The Mirror Girl - stares back at me ( Read more... )

New icon. Hmm, do I like it? I can't decide.

Everybody I know. Every journal I read. Everybody is in love. Maybe it's because it's spring.. or because they are all young..

But I want to know. It's supposed to be so grand. I just want to feel it.. once.. for a second. But that's something I don't think I'm capable of.

I am eating gummi jolly ranchers. The best candy there is. And now I idly wonder how much I weigh. I play these mind games with myself.. just another reminder that addiction is a disease.. but I won't get into that now ( Read more... )

i am color blind ( Read more... )

I had to take all of my ED and thinspiration communities off of my friends page because I simply couldn't handle any of it anymore. I feel like I don't even belong there. Fuck, I don't even think I have an eating disorder anymore. So I count calories and obsess.. that is a perfectly natural teenage girl thing. And so what if I spit out some of ( Read more... )

You make it sound like I am only here to watch you suffer
I've OD'd on your broken heart 31 times
It's always going to be too late if you have nothing
Don't leave me
I would never leave you

Sitting here
all wide-eyed
star spangled
tounge-tied
alone

I want you to know
I could have died with you

Goddamnit. I just want to grab her by the shoulders and scream at her to wake up. She's like bad gothic poetry. Stop thinking all of the fucking time! God damnit. Stop analyzing everything to the point where you want to kill yourself and stop inventing reasons for being insane. Everything is fine with you.. you're making yourself miserable ( Read more... )