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resolute
I am responsible for nothing more than myself. I think I might really be able to let go of my addiction to other people's approval. This comes as a shock, and my cautious mind almost wants to deny the possibility. I think my mind wants to keep me trapped. I am tired of being this fat. I have been for a while, yes. But getting in shape is sounding ( Read more... ) -
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I hate feeling this way. It's like, I just want to be completely alone but then when I actually do that I run the risk of feeling sorry for myself because there's no one around. Moron. -
i miss transcribing song lyrics as fast as the song, in real time
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can you hear what i hear, babe? does it make you feel afraid?
I love you and I will miss you when you're gone. I know that writing this won't be cathartic. It never has been. I can hope that perhaps re-reading it will be ( Read more... ) -
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i want out. -
you've been so busy lately that you havent found the time to open up your mind
I agree with the seestor when it comes to writing more. I especially like the idea of trying to revive the LJ world. Perhaps we could all get new accounts and start over, and actually update. It sounds nice to me. I get into these moods where I start thinking about all of the things I need to do to organize my life and get everything in its right ( Read more... ) -
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i am sad that you left without a gift of goodbye. i am coming to one of those realizations that happen.. the ones when you think you know something already but it doesn't actually come into focus until you say it outloud. i realize how lonely i really am... how i struggle to fill that void with distractions when all i need is myself ( Read more... ) -
hmph
I kinda hate to say it... but I am starting to feel like the internet is destroying me. It's all I do, it's all we do... and we are left feeling empty. It's almost time for no power week, yes? Let's plan a menu and get to it. I don't want my heart to shrivel, I don't want my mind to be lazy, I don't want my body to be useless.
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My heart is pounding and I feel like shit. I can't seem to think a single happy thought, all I can do is run from feeling bad. I miss old times, and I want to belong somewhere. Sad sad sad. -
Dream
I had a dream last night that Jacqui came back to life. It was in a house like mine, she was in a bed in a nook kinda like Sarah's room. I had just woken up in the morning and I walked out to see her there. She was dead and Mika was sleeping on her chest. It was weird because we all knew she was dead there but we hadn't moved her or anything. It's ( Read more... )