i cried today
not for you or for me or for us
but for him and his family
and his daughter
you will always be remembered.

1983-2007
sean taylor

love and hate are far too close these days.

im not sure that i miss you
im not sure that i just dont miss
the you that you were 5 years ago
or the me that i was 5 years ago
or the we that we were 5 years ago

in all likeliness i might just miss the flutter.

attempt #312
most likely
maybe this time it will work
if for no other reason than
there is none
this time it isnt a replacement
but an addition
i think that is important
not in general
but for me
maybe that is all ill get from this
and thats ok
for right now.

when i walked home it felt like a wedding
the white flowers on the wet black trees
petals falling on my skin
the bells of the church

but im sure the cars parked along the street
came for a funeral.

she decided she had to start doing things for herself
they werent coming through like they used to

and she started today
theres nothing favorable about saturday as a starting point
and she liked it that way.

its already happening.

im doing things because i told myself i would ( Read more... )

i want their reality ( Read more... )

all i want to do this summer
go places, read, ,see art, write, take pictures

maybe fall in love
not with someone necessarily but something.