ring dance tomorrow! i am so excited! so my comp screwed up when i ordered my ring and its gonna say 04 on it instead of 05, fuckers oh well it can be changed no biggie. im gonna get ringlets ina updo, so excited! and nails hehe. my shoes hurt a lot tho, oh well. and jilians, i am so looking forward to playing the games in my mad sexy dress! and oh ( Read more... )

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this describes mydself pretty well right now. oh fun stuff...

damnit my uncle is fucking drunk. and im not mistaken this time, ok so my mom is gone all day my uncle just talked to her on the effing phone adn all of a sudden he is calling, "cathy cathy CATHY" and im like "uh shes not here" and hes like "damnit she just was she left again" uh no dude she never was here. and id be ok w/ him but hes a fucking ( Read more... )

im so excited about ring dance right now. its gonna be fun. what is funny though is how i am much more excited about the b4 and after part of it. not the actual dance. i dunno why, i guess bc its funner to be around a group that you can feel like u can participate in whereas at the dance it will be loud and stuff, but then again there r games to ( Read more... )

i didnt get into govenors school. i really thought i had it this time. ill admit it, i cried, alot. maybe i should give up. maybe i really do have no talent. maybe id do better at something else, but i dont want to give up my dreams damnit! i dont know what to do now. i was depending on governors school as my excuse for giving up pa's theatre. ( Read more... )

antioch was as great as ever! nuff said there man, really it was so awesome and i so totally wanna do it again, last time i was really shy, but not this time, i think antioch has actually broken my shell of shyness hehehe. and my mom let me stay bc i was so tired, well and bc she needed help w/ kelli and karli bc they dont have school but hurrah. ( Read more... )

so i figure if i post this the day of antioch, it will still be a surprise for most ( Read more... )

so i just finished the final product of my talk. i dont know if i like it...i mean i do but its so badly written but i just dont know how to make it flow, oh well maybe it will i just cant tell bc i always critisize myself ( Read more... )

i hate myself i really do. i sit around i do nothing but shit. i dont understand my own feelings. i cant deal with it anymore, not with anything ( Read more... )

hahahaha today was funny. totally filled w/ impromtu hw. so, bio i didnt finish the last 5 questions and deff just wrote all this shit that made no sense right b4 the bell rung(and a little after) then in public speaking it was my turn to do a warm up(where u initiate some kind of game) and i totally forgot about so i did the toilet paper game, ( Read more... )