i have stitches in my mouth.

fuck. ow. ow. ow.

percosets rock.

i wish one of my parents would tell me i'd turned out exactly how they hoped.

i want to make sure that my kids know they will always be that to me. how could they not?

i think it's safe to say i've had a sufficiently emo morning.

They're back from Amsterdam.

Stability returns after a relapse into the crazybad place. Interactions have been negotiated, and I feel that my happiness is imminent.

Must remember what Nicki said: "The Universe is conspiring to shower you with blessings."

I must remember. I must remember.

Remember what the dormouse said,
Feed your head. Feed your head.

Okay. I got angsty writing out of the way. Rational Jake is going to be the functional one today, because emotional Jake is just too sad to come out today ( Read more... )

Talking to Matt just makes me sad and upset now. Being around him makes me sad and upset. I think, perhaps, the apart time needs to happen.

Then maybe my heart can finally stop hurting.

I feel like I am dying inside.

Troubling things were talked about last night ( Read more... )

I am sore from yoga yesterday. I went to yoga! It was great! And also free (well, not really, they have a very passive 'suggested donation' of $10, which I won't be able to pay for about another week and a half)!

I cannot wait to go back and do it again tonight!

dear everyone,

today i made a cool new friend.