I doubt anyone reads my livejournal anymore but I'm going to try my best while I'm deployed right now overseas to document my feelings on things and document my deployment as best as I can without risking any operational security.

This past week in rhode island for this training exersice has been utter hell. Thank god for Weezer Pinkerton.

"And I don't wana be an old man anymore, its been a year or two since i was out on the floor, shakin booty makin sweet love all the night, its time I got back to the good life."

fuck I love weezer.

I'm really thankful to be where I am in life right now. I have a loving girlfriend who is immensely smart with a great college education. I have achieved way more than most of my friends ever will what I have accomplished with the navy. I'm about to be sent over seas to the middle east come some time next year for an experience that will last a ( Read more... )

I'm really starting to lose my mind I think. The effects of heavy crippling depression stemming from an unhealthy amount grief is finally takings its toll. I average a close death or tragic event once a year from the past year. I shouldn't have to go to the cemetery at the age of 22 and make my rounds to visit my friends.  Nightmares come and go ( Read more... )

As days go by I just realize that our generation is totally fucked. No hope  once so ever for the future of our planet because we have miss guided people floating through the system. No work ethic, at all. Appearance, disgusting and retarded looking; multi colored hair, ear gauging, slutty dressing. Not to mention the fact that we need the media to ( Read more... )

Jimmy was my first and best growing up since the age of three. Almost every day of my child hood was spent hanging out with Jimmy, either swimming, building forts in the garage, riding bikes for hours or just wandering the neighborhood. He was a brother to me and felt like apart of my family. Every house, tree and crack on the side walk on Harding ( Read more... )

People just get me so frustrated it sucks. It's not like they do anything to me but it's the stuff I hear about or from them that really just gets me pissed off. How much people can drastically change for the worse. How people can easily be influenced by others and then change themselves. Like to emulate a great sense of what they never were. It ( Read more... )

Here is my latest Bush Rant. Why did George Bush invade  Iraq? Weapons of mass destruction. Bush Lied People Died ring a bell? Hear me out on this if anyone still bothers to read my live journal. If Bush only invaded Iraq so that his buisness friends and associates could gain a profit, such as Haliburton or Black Water, why would he risk his ( Read more... )

Tonight/Today had to be one of the best days I have had in a really really long time. Dagorhir was great at UB Con. I got to see a lot of old faces and friends and people were happy as hell to see me, its like i was appreciated. I really can't get over that feeling of being accepted and a sense of belonging. Then heather wedgewood we discovered her ( Read more... )

My nightmares become me its so fucking real.