If I could just hate you this would be so much easier.

The above line was restored from a much earlier entry I had planned to write. I think it was after Andy and I called things off. It would have been. But things being called off really meant they were called on on a bi-monthly basis. Minimum.

I'd like to take up writing. Real things. Plays, ( Read more... )

I'm feeling very sorry for myself right now.

Andy and I decided it would be best to remain friends and not hook up. So far, he hasn't called. I forgot what friends was like after you fuck someone.

Anyway, feeling lonely. No love. I actually joined an internet dating site. Some one help me.

As soon as I come up with the idea, I realize texting someone at 3am to hang out the following day comes across slightly creepy and obsessive. It is then I decide to save it until after I wake up.

P.S.
It smells like fall.

Today I found out I'm not pregnant. I am so excited about not having to get an unborn child sucked out of me, it doesn't even bother me that my cramps are pretty killer. Consequently, I restarted taking birth control the second I left the bathroom ( Read more... )

but if I had a sex tape nothing in life would ever be embarrassing again. A sex tape out, in stores, online, for purchase, rental or download.

For the record, no video recording of me having sex exists to my knowledge, but who knows whether or not someone has ever been a creep.

Still hung up on Derek, but in a way that feels like I just woke up from a dream I can barely, yet all too well remember. I think about him all the time. I hopped on a bus and then 2 different trains and traveled 6 hours back from Wildwood out of boredom, annoyance, and infatuation. The ride was nice and Sarah was wearing me out. I went back to the ( Read more... )

Last night was the first night I can remember where I slept alone. I'm getting really close to Derek and I have 3 days left. It's sad and bizarre and I'm torn. Part of me would love to stay, but I'm aching to get home. I can't let myself feel like a real person because if I do I will be flooded with emotion and I will have no idea how to deal with ( Read more... )

I did not get Teach for America and it's a little bit disheartening because now I don't know what I'm going to do. It looks like back to Homework Club? But that is not a career and I need to get moving. I have to come up with a dream job. So far it's one where I'm going to be working with people. I'd like to be the change I'd like to see in the ( Read more... )

It has occurred to me I haven't had sex of any kind in 8 weeks and 2 days. I haven't been keeping count. I just looked at a calendar. Perhaps this is why I keep thinking of every male I come across in sexual terms. Mark just FB chatted me. I thought about hooking up with him this weekend throughout the whole conversation. My research buddy and pal ( Read more... )

We have mice. We have an infestation of them to be honest. It is disgusting especially since they have moved the operation upstairs. They use the hole where the cable wires come through as their entrance. They live in the fucking walls. And they eat absolutely everything. I left a plastic packet of honey on my floor and the evil fuckers stole it ( Read more... )