A lot has happened since I last updated. Lucy has her four front top teeth coming in all at once, we had a few really bad days. I think they all have finally broken through though so it shouldn't be so bad. Now she'll be up to six teeth! The past week she just started standing on her own. At first she would just pull up and let go but now she can ( Read more... )

Wow. Three years.

I am so so very stupid.

I don't want to find a new place to live. People came to look at the house the other day and one of the women said,"Oh you can leave one of the cats here, she loves cats." (Talking about her sister). And then goes into Lucy's room while she's sleeping and says something about how she wanted a second bedroom. It made me want to scream in her face ( Read more... )

Lucy is on the move. She doesn't crawl like the traditional hands and knees way, no she inchworms. And she is getting into everything. I have to vacuum like three times a day because every little speck she sees has to be thoroughly inspected, meaning it must be poked, rubbed into the carpet, picked up, put down, picked up again and eaten. And then ( Read more... )

I am so sick of insurance companies. Absolutely sick of them. It seems like they send all of the bills for the past six months at exactly the same time. And lately every bill seems to have an issue with it, so I have to call up the insurance company a million times, be told what the hell is wrong with the claim, then call up the doctor or hospital ( Read more... )

And one day my little girl will reach out her hand, she'll know I found the right man.

I wish I had friends. And I don't just mean acquaintance friends but like super awesome best friends ever friends. I want to have people that I can just call up randomly and be like "hey! come over and do nothing with me!" and they'd be like "absolutely best friend!" It's so much harder to make friends now. Now I see how easy it was in school, you ( Read more... )

I am so tired. And I don't mean I need sleep. I keep thinking about how my life could change for the better but this will always be there hanging over me. I am so sick of it, I am so angry and I am so sad. And I know the excuses I'll hear, they're the same exact words as the last time and every time before that. I'm sick of the empty promises, of ( Read more... )

Lucy is seven months, she's trying to crawl and she's having attachment issues. She actually plays with toys now and doesn't just try to eat everything in sight. Well she still does that too. The whole house is a freaking mess, lucy's room is a disaster because I don't know what to do with her old stuff. I really need to go through her clothes and ( Read more... )