this is a blast from the past *lol* ok so i found the password to my old lj. which is, in fact, this one. so yeah basically i'm updating one more time cause there are still several people who have me friended on this lj but not my new one, the_midgetqueen. if you want to be in the know, add the newer lj to your list! i'll add ya back!

ok i'm outta here.

if i think you're nifty and you think i'm nifty too, and you still haven't added the_midgetqueen to your friends list... get on it, yo! this lj has passed into archival obscurity, antiquity, those lovely bygone days, auld lang syne, an obsolescent state... yeah. and other fancy words for "the past is gone, we're movin' on..."

it's time enough for a new incarnation. she already excites me. maybe she'll do better around dogs, and cars, and needles, and hats and other things i could never conquer. i know that in a lot of ways she is freer than i have ever been. she won't put herself or her friends through her problems over and over again, because she will learn to deal and ( Read more... )

so he tore me to shreds. after this number of occasions, i should be used to it by now. so why should i let it keep me down? sure, i'm never going to fully get over it and i have to accept that. i have to take account for my mistakes and cut my losses and accept that there's no way to go back and do it over the "right" way. i have to make a ( Read more... )

cara and panda finally brought me back to life a little bit. after i woke up at like 2:30. sleep is good because it's the only time i don't feel like i'm shredded into eight zillion pieces. a little while ago i pulled myself together enough to get to the showers and back without going nuts again ( Read more... )

i need to go to class today and i can't even make myself leave this room. it exhausted me just to brush my hair and fall back onto my bed. this does not look promising. but what can i do besides email some lame excuse to my professors and try again tomorrow?

he just brought my dress over. this gorgeous white dress that i have no use for. we were fighting because i was having such a hard time dealing with him going into the army. i think he gave up too easily. the details don't matter now though, we can't take this back. but i am not a victim here. i was scared and i hurt us both. God, i pushed him away ( Read more... )

on the downside... sickness sucks.

on the upside... rebound-crush boy is no longer rebound-crush boy. he's now safely into supertastic friend territory. hooray for one factor in my life being as it should be. at least SOMETHING is right in all this suckiness.

i've been in many a thoughtful mood lately. something about watching everything you thought you could be certain of a year ago crumble before your eyes does that, i suppose ( Read more... )

( kendall payne lyrics )