fml.  im withdrawing into my head way too much.  but it’s comfortable there, familiar.  i feel like i’m crazy sometimes, maybe delusional.  i’m consumed by role playing and have way too many what if moments and second guess myself all the time.  i’m never going to be famous or meet famous people.  i’m from rhode island and go to school in a small ( Read more... )

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we're good. really good. and right now, i'm happy with where we are. the ball is in his court now, and he has the entire summer to decide if he wants to come back to school. when we said goodbye on friday, i told him that he had definitely made my year interesting. he told me that it was a good thing and then he hugged me again. he left and i ( Read more... )

i told him how i felt last night. i have no idea how he feels. i just told him that i stilled liked him and i knew that even though this was the end of the year, and i wasn't originally going to tell him how i felt, i had ended up thinking about it a lot over the last two weeks and decided to tell him. i wish i knew how he was taking the news. ( Read more... )

He still has no idea.

I think I still may have a thing for him and that's why it bothers me when he talks to her ( Read more... )

Last night, I broke. I confronted my friend after talking with Ben for a while. I gave in and she won. I hate that I break so easily and that I’m a doormat for others. I don’t really feel that I have any say in basically any of my friendships and that hurts. I got the feeling that she didn’t think I could relate on her level because I haven’t ( Read more... )

so, time for a semi-real update from me. this is really the only place i can talk freely, which sucks but right now, spoken word gets me in trouble ( Read more... )

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc ( Read more... )

so, getting belligerantly drunk isn't my thing.
especially when you spend the night in the lap of a guy you just met. and who had just broken up with his girlfriend the week before. oops.

on the other hand, i had jack daniels for the first time.
i think i might like him better than the captain.