i, being naturally skeptical, googled and finally called.

"did you recently try to sell something on craigslist? and did someone contact you? did they offer more than you were asking?"

"what would have happened if i cashed the check," i asked him.

"they would have needed the difference back, and then had your banking information."

i'm not even crying any more. why is that? am i so used to him jerking me around and flaking out that i don't even let it bother me as much?

or is it callous? scar tissue? that's probably not good.

one of the stages, right? so, progress.

we moved up to birmingham, al in 2006. the "living together" was supposed to be temporary, but for various reasons it went on for a year, and we gradually deteriorated to hostile roommates. i subsequently bought a townhouse and moved out, and he got his own place and things got better ( Read more... )

basically, because he was afraid of what MIGHT happen, he went ahead and made it happen.

was it this difficult to love me before i got on anti-depressants? did your heart break when i stopped talking like mine is broken now? did you feel it was unfair? did you take it personally? did you think life would be easier without the roller coaster ride?

...is apparently having some sort of commonly occurring, yet difficult to fix problem, wherein it will not play ANY games. Oh, we can watch movies through the netflix, sure...access to all our hard drive data is fine, plays DVD's no problem. But put ODST in and "please put this disc into an xbox 360" pops up on the big white screen with lots of ( Read more... )

I heard from my first love yesterday. It's been....20 years!

Apparently he's married and doing well. Now he's in my mafia.

I don't want to get over it. I don't want to move on. I don't want to abandon hope of reconciliation. The central tenet of my belief system is based on reconciliation, so why would I even consider giving up hope for that ( Read more... )

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