I always find it so hard to actually get into these journal things. At one point in my life I would write every chance I got. Then things changed, people would read them (go figure), feelings would stir, opinions would change, then where things were once normal everything had turned to shit over one thought in binary. Amy wonders why I don't post, ( Read more... )

Well it quite literally has been about six months since I've had anything to do with anything on any journal, but I think it's time to change this. I got a computer, and internet, and I'm happy. I'm no longer Amish, as I used to be, heck I even have a World of Warcraft account now. Snicker, well for all of you that care out there, I miss you guys, ( Read more... )

Well, me and Amy fixed things. And then something bad happened and her parents, who once trusted and loved me, see me as less than the slime ring around a toilet... Nice imagery huh? I guess this is the only way I can keep in contact with the old crowd, so hey peeps, if you remember me. God, there is so much that needs to be said and I have two ( Read more... )

I must say, via extremley recent events in my history, I am clicking my heels around every corner I walk. My standing with Amy, the election, the knowledge that I acually am worth somthing good, and knowing all of these great things are only going to get better in the future! Well, I'm not sure about bush, BUT GOD I AM HAPPY!!!

Thoughts of Amy in my head have become worse and worse. And for the first time since everything went to hell, I haven't thought about how horrible things were, what kind of person she was. No, for the first time, I've actually thought about Amy, and the memories. She claimed, or least I think she claimed that the hardest part of this breakup wasn't ( Read more... )

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Tuesday, October 19, 2004 ( Read more... )

Many things have happened in the past couple days, and I know right now I'm going to end up going out of order, but I'll do my best. In an un fathomable display of unselfishness, Amy e-mailed me to inform me that she was going to do her best to show up to a musical theater production in which I was one of the leads in. Now this is the first show I' ( Read more... )

Alex and I had just returned from a few moments of merriment before another week of hell, at Za's, when I was suddenly struck with an urge to check my e-mail. It was funny because this so called "urge," was actually another of my sad hopes of hearing from her again. Me and Alex were just talking about relationships, and I was jolted with the ( Read more... )

Well seeing as this the first entry I've ever made in this journal I fear it will be a disappointment. Mainly three things have happened and I don't know what to do about any of them. Well for starters, Amy, a girl I devoted my soul to have recently dumped me for reasons that are questionable. Secondly, someone a care about in the current musical I ( Read more... )