I may look but...never never touch...for reasons apparent to those from an outside perspective, but when the situation arose...things just clicked. Strange how those things that shouldn't happen do, but nothing about it feels wrong. Confusion, another emotion, tho it's a nice change from the recent, and there's no denying that my mood had made a ( Read more... )

Why do I do what I do...it doesn't help anything or anyone...

Sleep doesn't come to me like it used too...

I'm happy for reasons I shouldn't be, and I'm not upset by reasons I should be...

Things are bizzare in this life...

I'm tired of everone giving me advice instead of just listening...I think I may be guilty of that very crime as well...I just need to shut up, and let go. I need to keep caring but from a distance. I need to stop tortouring myself...I need to do so much, but things are just the way they are, and I cant change that. I just need a kiss, or a hug, or ( Read more... )

And it's that fucking simple.

I have a day off, I just woke up, and it 2:30...*grin. I feel great, nothing really planned for day, except for tiny little chores i.e. getting me rear view mirror re-glued (my new bass system vibrated it off *grin) Taking sean to go visit his grandma, and last but certainly not least, going to check out a club in D.C. i've never heard of...Black ( Read more... )

It's the little things...

Happy fucking valentine's day...maybe cupid will shoot me in the throat.

With a sickening THUD my knees buckle out from under me, and I fall onto my face. I try to open my eyes, but they burn and water when the light hits them...I try to pull myself up, but there's nothing, and every inch of me feels beaten and sore. I roll over in agony, and the floor itself feels on fire. I want nothing more than to leave, to be free ( Read more... )

I broke down and wept today ( Read more... )