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AH fuck
almost two years of effort and i over sleep at the wrong moment... as usaual i rise to the surface showing absolute skill and understanding, i impress all those who who supervise me, i show my skills and ability to lead and i turn the worst line in the building into the best and and most efficient one. you are quite the tame leader they say; though ( Read more... ) -
in tears and sobs
recent mentioning have forced me to think of my father and the 5 years its been since i seen his face. huh the last time i seen him is when Dustin met him we graduated. he and i are so different he made his peace with me for never being a father and walking out when i was born, and i never had to ask him why, he was their but only in mention i ( Read more... ) -
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I TRY and every thing falls apart .. i think i have somthing and it blows up in my face .. i work hard and float to the surface only to be scooped away to the trash .. i think about what i need and i strive for it only to have somthing apear that rips, i listen to my recordinghs and think "this is so bad!" i keep fearing that i can't make it ( Read more... ) -
absinthly sindecaydead deliusions of joy
i sip my addiction in difiance of all those who say that they know me.. they know only fractions of a fracterd soul. the shattered reflective peices of a fragil sanity. the apperance is marred.. mucked in failed anticipation.. i reget nothing .. but i find myself retrospectivly daunted by failure. why do i get back up? how do i stand when my legs ( Read more... ) -
i can't get these demons out. the knives, the knives are too dull to cut still i bleed and bleed!
the a moment and i am graved .. how is it that i try and help only to be toiled and tooled as a fool .. i help and when i need help i am shunned and betrayed by those who i have grown to depend on.. i'm happy for you .. i have bad days.. but alas it must mean i am mad .. well i'm not .. i feel as a failure does ..that i devote me myself and i to a ( Read more... ) -
passing by
i look out and see all things passing by.. i feel lost and still yet hopefull i think of all the things i have seen and the things i hope to see .. but on the edge of this i am reminded that to be young is to dream.. and the grow up is accepting that those dreams may never happen... forgiveness is devine and the happness is the unexamined life... ( Read more... ) -
the endless faliure to keep control over a control freak who has lost control... your pathetic
i walk alone and i dream of you .. like a solder wounded, i bleed, as phantoms speak... i weep ..but can i love you .. i need to love you .. so this flesh don't grey .. the tears wash away .. some say .. i found you but sorrow holds me..kisses my cheak and consoles me -
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And now i am Caesar... Et tu, Brute?
Have you come to bury Caesar? ...brother? because fatal wounds are like angel kisses compares to this strain on my heart... i am a fool who failed to fool himself with the hope of forgiveness... tears are are proof that i am once again losing faith... faith i had in you. and now words are and will never be enough ... for i am broken. i told her ( Read more... )
