hey, im at jeds house and im in a bad mood but hes trying to make me feel better which is really nice. im just not too happy again. i dunno what is wrong with me. im trying to work through my problems but things dont seem to be working out for me very well. i hate this anymore. i saw travis today. i found out where he lived and i went to his house ( Read more... )

sadness, again. oh well. its cool. im just getting used to it by now. i dont know what is going on anymore. i feel like i dont know which way is up or down. is it night or day? i have no idea. let me out of this eternal misery. anyway, i might see travis this weekend, i was supposed to see him today but it never happened. i wanna talk to peyton but ( Read more... )

i have the new song by fall out boy stuck in my head. its a great video. anyway, this ain't a scene, its a G*# Damn arms race!

So I woke up in a great mood, except I had to pee like the dickens and it was freezing cold in the bathroom and the seat was like ice. I'm sure you didn't want to know that but I felt the need to share my experience with all of you. Anyway, I'm in one of the best moods ever. I'm over Zack for the most part. Of course I miss him but I don't want him ( Read more... )

travis durbin. i love love love love you. you are the best thing to happen to me in a while. i cant believe i can be this happy after zack, but look at me. i cant stop smiling. i love you so much. i really want this to work. you have no idea how much i wanna be with you. i want to finally be happy. thank you for making my life a million times ( Read more... )

I'm in a good mood. I'm happy for once in my life. It's weird. Anyway, I'm gonna go to homework now. Bye.

Carey's party was fun but now that I am home things are getting to me. At least I'm almost all the way done with IDs and I don't have any dishes to do tonight. That is good. I'm sick and I'm dizzy and I'm cold. I don't want to go to school tomorrow but I have to. That's okay with me because at least school will keep my mind off of things for a ( Read more... )

ugh, i dunno why i said im going to be emo. im not emo. im tired. ive been doing homework all day. i had about 40 sections to do, now i have 15. im so tired. who the fuck cares about the railroads? i could handle one section, not an entire fucking chapter!!!!!!! i dont care about the stupid things. i dont care about how men were stupid and did all ( Read more... )

I need an emo moment. I dunno why. I love Travis, but I love Zack so freaking much. It kills me that he is treating me this way. But I'm not going to get depressed about him anymore. I'm going to be okay, for once. I won't talk to him online, on myspace, and I won't call him. I am going to ignore him for the rest of the break and for as long ( Read more... )

i just realized that the game i made up for peyton and i is going to take forever. one line at a freaking time. wow, thats a lot of time. peyton if you get sick of it tell me cuz i have made up a new game. anyway, talk to you later. peace!