It's been some time - always seems to be- since I last posted ( Read more... )

Today I've eaten more tha I have each day all week. peice of bread, some soup and a stuffed shell. I don't think I could be more lost than I am now. but ... I'm sure one day I will be. I am not a teen ager anymore, this angst isn't normal. well - for the occasion it is ( Read more... )

my mother... will not be alive to see me do anything good for myself... I feel sick- and lost. I can't eat much right now ... I don't know why but I want to loose connection with Justin. I broke things off and... and he won't let me go. I don't know if I should or not. I feel so sick. I want some one else to hold me... but why now? why ( Read more... )

Last night , went to a concert. Gwar, the red chord and job for a cowboy. first metal concert, and I seriously was waiting to freak out. I've been working on it, getting over fears in order to live a fuller life. One is being crushed or suffocated by people, later learned by almost anything. I like my space ( Read more... )

I'm moving out. Going to live in Colonie with Justin, Josh, and Tim Budka ( Read more... )

I have no idea of what is going on. I wish I could know if I will be leaving soon or not. I can;t seem to get the nerve to ask important Questions. I fail at comunication. :(

Though, some times not knowing is just as bad as knowing.

If you ever read this love, when ever you are ready, I am too. <3 ( Read more... )

Another day goes by. I wish I would do something for myself... but all I can do is think and wish for him. I don't much like this, but at thesame time, I'm happy to miss him... to know that I really love him ( Read more... )

Whenever I'm alone with you ( Read more... )

was heard over a 7 min phone conversation.

You're super awesome too.

Thank you. So very much.

My faith and trust in the world is quickly being broken and turning to a paranoia which is frustrating me. I have always been weary of others, but recent events (nothing very serious) have made me both angry and possibly jaded to others' requests. I am tired of being stepped on for being maybe slower and nicer then others. If you can not keep ( Read more... )