Here i go again
putting on this smile
i start to cry and then
i decide it isn't worth the while.

acting like I'm okay
acting like I'm happy
having the best day
happy finally

I'm smiling until i reach my door
and step inside these stupid walls
and suddenly my tears just pour
having no one there, and no one to call

i have it all
or that's what they say
always ( Read more... )

ok, so they gave away my dog and made me break up with deven.

i really am alone...

so this past weekend was fun.

on friday: went to amanda's house and ate a bunch of food (of course, because her parents feed us) then we just hung out, got in trouble by the security gaurds and got a ride home from him. then we snuck out of the gates at about 2'o clock and t.p.'d chris taylors house. then we ran because we thought we got caught. ( Read more... )

i am heart broken

_.:*don't make someone a *priority* who only makes you an *option*:._

i should really pay attention to that.

hmmm. today was strange. i saw the vending machine guy today, i shall call him tony. muwahahahahaha. that weirdo guy that likes my stomach was like following me around today in phys. ed. i was all scared.

uh, i hit my elbow like ten times ( Read more... )

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so, the vending machine guy came again today. he gave me his number again. woo hoo. SCORE!! lol. it's so funny, i gave that poem i wrote (the one that started with like 'i see you in the halls...blah blah blah' to the guy it was about, and like, he was all goofy about it. he told me he likes me too and that he thought i just wanted to be friends ( Read more... )

I see you everyday,
You pass me in the hall,
Though I look away,
And stare at the wall.

I see you at lunch,
Sitting with your friends,
Laughing, smiling,
Talking about about your weekend.

Have you ever once seen me?
..I see you everyday,
I've seen you smile and laugh,
Listened to what you say.

I'm in love with you,
And you don't know me,
I smile when I think of ( Read more... )

A Shattered Angel,
With Shredded Wings.
Finding Out How,
Her Death Begins.

Bloody Tear Drops,
Falling Down.
Screaming Inside.
Her Mouth - No Sound.

Pleading Sorrows,
Drowning Soul.
Nothing Left,
To Make Her Whole.

Choking Tears,
Inside Her Throat.
Clutching Tight,
Her Suicide Note.

Living Nightmares,
Every Day.
Haunting Voices,
Have Their Say.

Weaving Ribbons,
Trail ( Read more... )

sorry i haven't updated in a while. it's not like anyone really reads this shit anyways.

so, deven came over today, so that means nothing out of the ordinary happened.

that's all.

xo

p.s. i miss him still...