So I just went completely apeshit and told hubby the unadulterated truth. I have been too unhappy for too long and I want a divorce. I can't keep lying to him or myself, thinking that even his sobriety will make things work. I want out. I want to fly and be free. I promised myself that if he ever got well and sober, that I would finally take the ( Read more... )

I just did one of the hardest things in my life. Well two of the hardest things. My top ten list is getting rather full right now ( Read more... )

First, the fluff. J and I went to another Christmas show yesterday. I was operating on 3.5 hours of sleep and we walked our asses off. The cool thing is, when we were standing in line, the woman in front of us turned around and gave us two tickets for the show. Was a pleasant surprise, especially since the tix were 8 bucks a piece. We spent about 3 ( Read more... )

So I have been having too much fun with the deaddogs. I have met some fun friends and I can't wait until I can meet some more of them. I introduced Ramien into their mix tonight and I am not quite sure how he took to the crazy bunch. Alot of them are going to the con next week and I think he would have a ball with them ( Read more... )

I feel much better saying what was on my mind to the woof. I can't keep shit stuffed inside. I have never been good at that and I hope I never get good at it ( Read more... )

Looking back on the memory of ( Read more... )

I have received so much love and support from you all recently that it damnnear brings me to tears to think about it. I wish I could explain to all of you what has made me lose my faith, but it wouldn't be fair to the other person involved. He is a well-loved (and rightly so, IMHO) fur who has his own path to follow now. He really didn't cause me ( Read more... )

Right now, I want nothing more than to throw away every solitary spiritual belief I have and just say fuck it. I want to go to sleep and not wake up. If I do have to wake up, I want someone to wake me and tell me that this has been nothing but a nightmare and all is right with the world. This vixen has lost all perspective and has decided to ( Read more... )

I know that recent events aren't my "fault". I didn't cause one friend to slip into depression and I didn't cause the crisis of faith in another. I also know that there is no such thing as coincedence, so it was more by design that I was involved with these people when the crises happened. The question is... why? To teach, to learn, to just be? I ( Read more... )

No matter how hard I try, someone always ends up hurt around me. Never again.