All I can say right now is that I am happy. And nothing can take that away. Because it is the happiness that I have needed for so long, I am happy with me, with who I am, where I am going, who I am with and the people I surround myself with. And I am happy that the destructive people in my life are gone. I am glad that one person in particular has ( Read more... )

I CAN:

• Make a new life for myself
• Make new friends
• Keep those new friends
• Lose weight
• Keep the weight off

It just so happens that I have, over time, turned into everything that I didn't/don't want to be....everything that I warned against. Well, turned into may be a little strong. I have...learned that the world is not so black and white, by being put in multiple situational shoes. I have grown by trusting in God and knowing that things happen right ( Read more... )

BAM! There Jeremiah is back in my life...well, in a sense. This isn't a repeat of the past. This time he isn't luring me in with his lies. This time he just so happens to live in the same dorm as James. Which, of course is causing a lot of problems in our relationship. I mean I still love Jeremiah, no matter how much he doesn't deserve it. And I ( Read more... )

God is so good. He answers my prayers and I just don't deserve it at all. I am so greatful. Everything is so much better when God is included. I am just really happy at this moment. He makes me smile and brings me to my knees.

I guess I can't be too mad at myself. My perception of life wasn't what it is now, at the time in my life anything was possible. "House" was a game I played, where, I always pretended to be 19. But I would never grow up, and if I did...I was going to be a singer and tour all over the world. My childhood self would be upset to know that I haven't ( Read more... )

You said you didn't need me (but you did ( Read more... )

I guess I haven't learned yet that you can't make people care anymore than they do...no matter how hard/much you try. Your heart controls you, not the other way around. But when you have been brought up around people for 18 years I guess those are the only people that matter, no matter what your heart says...no matter what that person has done for ( Read more... )

Did you forget ( Read more... )

I have got to stop opening up my heart. It means nothing to anyone.