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I'm not sure if I'm supposed to put these in my profile or layout or what, so I'm just going to stick them on top of my journal. I only know who one of them is from (though I have my suspicions as to the other) but they make me feel happy regardless. Thank you!!
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I promised not to look again. I promised not to wonder again. I knew there were more lies, but I promised not to go looking.
Curiosity kills and all. -
I will watch you dance alone
I'm crying, but I'm not sad. I was feeling sad before, like ten minutes ago (not the random remembering sadness I sometimes get; I was reading stuff that made me nostalgic and whatnot), but I didn't cry then. And I don't usually cry anyway ( Read more... ) -
The dust has only just begun to fall
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The inside of my head is spinning ( Read more... ) -
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I feel insane. I feel it a lot. I keep thinking things I shouldn't and I drown in them, in memories I don't want to have and fears I don't want to fear, and though it never lasts sometimes I'm scared I'll never come out.
Nothing prompted this. Life is pleasant. Good grades, good friend, great girlfriend. Cold and sick, but I ate today. It's just my ( Read more... ) -
It isn't the love of a hero, that's why I fear it won't do
I don't know what to say and I don't know how to fix it. It feels like my fault, because it wouldn't have happened if I weren't there, but I didn't do anything wrong and neither did she. I love her so much and I don't know how to make her better, and that hurts so fucking much. If this is how I made her feel, it's no wonder things ended the way ( Read more... ) -
You and me could write a bad romance
This is silly. In fact, it borders on pathetic. I don't like feeling this way.
Honestly, I don't know what I think I'm doing. I could back out in a second; it would be the easy way out, and no one would blame me, but it's the last thing I want to do.
(What do you honestly believe is going to happen?)
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Just let me be there for you
Feelings are…confusing. And frustrating. My thoughts have this thing they do where they refuse to turn off, even when I try to make them, and I’m not sure what to do about that.
Also, I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow. Terrific.
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Seems an awful shame
There’s something very refreshing about being able to cry and scream until your throat is raw and your head is light and spinning. Something akin to peace results, and you can’t be scared of the outcome even though things are horrible and you wish you could throw away your family.
Ironic how lovely things and awful things in my life can occupy such ( Read more... )