time is silly and everything really is unfortunately just momentary

when i think about how i view natural law and the differences between men an women i seem to always find myself referencing the sperm whale

tolerance ever dwindling. i remember two years ago when i was sitting in front of a computer asking myself how it got to be this way thinking that things couldnt get any worse. i really try not to act on emotion in most typical daily circumstances, but  dealing with one let down after the next in such a quick decline throughout a day only leading ( Read more... )

phony cultured fools ( Read more... )

 contradictions

when you let down your guard, weakness invades. after the sedimentary lifestyle of content living for a short period of time the weakness evolves. soon it affects your judgement,  reactionary vocal patterns, then eventually your will to really do anything for yourself thats unique or meaningful in a non conventional way. it all disappears and ( Read more... )

next month will be crazy. playing the fest will be fun despite the terrible fucking lineup thats not worth buying a ticket for. mostly in due to some dumbass i know that got tased a bazillion times by cops after our house show last year. playing in two new bands also since i got kicked out of both the others i played in for the reason of playing in ( Read more... )

well i just caught my house on fire

feeling rather disconnected again. sickened by most of what i see around me, especially the fools that seem to fall into each others self pity. i think of when i felt similar distractions and gave into my natural selective reactions. settling as a means of making up for the hole youve dug yourself into. feeling obligations of adulthood, such as ( Read more... )

every time i find a girl that im vaguely interested in, i end up learning more than i want to know about them... its past the point of being shy now, and im feeling more confident in my self just in general so that part is fine. its just the conversations that entail there after where they begin to tell me about their crazy x's that somehow fucked ( Read more... )