Well, Welll, well, I really got put in my place today. Others have noticed besides me how badly I am doing. So it shows inmy daily life online quite a bit, Black/white thinking, or what I dont know. Also finding out more so this past week that beckys depression of late may be BPD too (she is 19) and has had a few SI behaviors since age 15. ( Read more... )

This past week has been so stressful, loaded with unusual anxiety for me; Have never felt like that before; It all started wtih diagnoistic testing with psycholoigst last mon; also met up with a guy online thru yahoo personnels. in my area. he is a psychotherapist. We got along great oneline, he called me wed nite; nice sexy warm voice; We had ( Read more... )

Finally got a new (used) car on thurs, 1999 Pontiac Sunfire, auto, a/c, cd changer, 2 door, white. Love it. Dave is jealous. lol ( Read more... )

Feeling really down today; found out by reading a post that seroquel can cause weight gain. and now that i'm on 250 mg (increased from 25) im more scared, depressed, upset, nervous, anxiety, everything; Depressed enough about emotional eating and weight gain What the heck do i do now?.

have spent the last sveral days in hospital since 14th after an OD and cutting epidosde. Was in ER for 24 hrs (no bed), then up to 4th florr for 2 days and then sent up to psych for 5 days;. Meds were slowly re-introduced - wellbutrin and seroquel but no prozac. As of yesterday now on 50 mg seroquel tid (3x daily) and also 100 mg bedtime. this ( Read more... )

A dear new acquaintance in one of my bpd groups with fibromayglia like me, has committed suicde. Her sister emailed me tonight; She has left me in charge of how and when to tell the group. I'm in shock, I had no idea she was this bad. I only recently met her online too in the last few weeks. Sis told me that she had good things in herjournal ( Read more... )

No car, been out walking all over town We, thurs, and fri. and now paying for it pain wise. Hopefully something will come out of car search thru auto trader t his weel. Becky has had 2 calls from 2 possible jobs in Otawa near amy's. Only problem, no way of getting home after hrs. At last till i have a car, that I can pick her up in Orleans. ( Read more... )

Spend all day in bed today with bad FM, pain, fatigue,. With all the booze I drank yesterday (rum); that probably had something to do with it too.

Hi diary; Well, it finally pays off to say something to the parents on how I am actually doing/feeling; Dad sent an email to dave asking if I was ok. So Dave called me today to see how I was. Since I had written in last email home Tues nite after car shopping how things were gong and how I was feeling ( Read more... )

Why do I not feel like it is a new year.? Why do I feel like HELL ( Read more... )