So its about 530 in the morning on a saturday... and im up early about ready to head out for work... yeah working on a saturday morning... cause i need the money. i got a 185 dollar speeding ticket yesterday morning on the way to work which really sucks... cause not only will i have to pay that.... but my car insurance will go up. which really ( Read more... )

So im pretty sure im toned down a bit... and i know ive been getting stronger thanks to work and working out so im happy there ( Read more... )

so today is my day off, ill be getting 8 hours of pay for the holiday without even having to come in which is just okay with me... cause it seems like everything ive been doing latley involves work. last night i went to a party with a few of them and came real close to a fight. a guy i usually argue with was right in my face saying he could lay me ( Read more... )

so ive been doing construction for a week and a half now... im so exhausted i must have slept a total of 12 hours last night and yesterday... i got nothing i wanted to do accomplished besides buying a webcam with money i didnt really have to spend. but it was good to talk to pete over seas with both webcams going... now if i could just hear from ( Read more... )

so tired... had a long day of work in cold hard rain and wind down in lincolnville, near campden.. tommorow all the way down to some place near waldabourough... then saco the day after i think... already im getting tired of the people i work construction with, they are overbearing and rude, and most things im afraid of becoming if i stick around ( Read more... )

ive spent the last couple nights saying goodbye to people.. and this is the last night of doing so.. how can i have grown close to people and feel like itll be hard to get by without them in only 9 months... or less in most cases ( Read more... )

Everytime I see a movie like "Braveheart", in the effect that they are fighting for what they believe... the feeling i get makes me realize... i would be better off, nay I belong in that age more then the time i am in now. Friends and family tell me that i belong here, but really i can see, or have seen myself on a field of battle, swinging a large ( Read more... )

Its tuesday.... next tuesday ill be taking my last final... after that im starting my construction job on wednesday.. i cant wait... those guys are so simple to deal with... and after works done its done.. no homework or anything like that. and your not graded on your performance its either pass or fired. yeah ill become an alchoholic drinking at ( Read more... )

Im so tired right now.. but Ive been meditating to get my head back together and although im still having trouble typing and thinking right now... I think writing all this out will help me get my head together ( Read more... )

I think too much, and I talk too much... yet I am determined to follow the way of the samurai which states in its basis, that one should not be careless with his words.. and one should not think more then seven breaths long. I want to help people but recognize that i need to start taking care of myself... and even though i truly want peace, it ( Read more... )