" 1. What is a difference between the last two people you kissed?
I was in love with one, and drunk for the other."

i'm fairly sure i was the second to the last person he kissed.... if that's true he really did love me.... i wonder if he still does of if i'm just a "was" thing...

i was standing at the bus stop when i realized i can't be here.... so i walked to the hospital to visit mom because i didn't want to go home.... i ended up crying, telling her i didn't think i should be here in general and leaving her worried... i walked towards home and realized that i was a dykish looking girl with fishnets under her ripped jeans ( Read more... )

i've never been so mad about someone attempting suicide.

if i'm as perfect as they say then why don't they want me? -signs- i guess i'll never get it

so in decorating my room today i decided that i wanted the small wall to be covered in letters ( Read more... )

fuck you horoscope!

fuck letting your guard down...

there's no way for either of us to be sure that we're both ready to do this. .... he doesn't even know that i'm just as unsure as he is, i don't even know if he remembers telling me he's not sure.

i feel empty....

sooo that one night after the party .... sylvio came by saying he needed a place to crash...haha. cough yeah. i told him he could stay one the couch not in my room. i shut the hallway door in his face and he left a little while later only to get pulled over on the way out of the parking lot. a dui and 7 hours in jail.... all cause i didn't want to ( Read more... )

alan told me he loved me today... the way he loves the beauty of a sunset.

it made me happy